Okay guys. I have a confession. Before the hardcore whole30-er’s reading this blog start throwing things at me… Just hear me out. So this weekend I had a trip planned with my mom to go to the Miranda Lambert Concert in Charlotte, NC. Let me first say that I am a person who is always training my body relentlessly running and lifting. I work two jobs and it equals to about 60 hours a week. I have a very rigid schedule and rarely allow myself to indulge in fun. My life the last six months has been recognizing how hard I am on myself and trying to allow myself to live a little and love myself more, living mindfully in the present.
Even though on the outside I try to put on like I am super confident, I have always struggled with loving the way I look. I plan my meals ahead of time like some kind of sacrificial ritual and I have literally cried for eating something “off track” when I did paleo before. I’ve watched the scale, counted the calories, trying to fit in this box that society wants women to be in. This is not a healthy relationship with food and being a therapist/personal trainer it makes me want to set a better example for my clients. Life is about balancing the good/bad, not beating ourselves up for every single thing we eat- I definitely have more good days than bad. After a heart to heart with my mom and her pointing out how hard I am on myself I realized that I needed to allow myself to open up and actually enjoy the trip and not worry too much about “rules”.
It all started when we stopped at a gas station in Hendersonville, NC. There was a gas station BAR. Yes, a BAR!!!! In a GAS STATION!!! Filled with local craft beers and ciders. This was like a once in a life time opportunity and while I had literally brought enough whole30 snacks, jerky, and water to survive for a week without messing up my whole challenge… I couldn’t pass this up y’all. I tried to keep it as “paelo-fied” as I possibly could and tried a honey dew melon hard cider from Bold Rock Brewing Co. Basically, except from the sugar that allows the drink to ferment- hard ciders are a relatively healthy choice if you are going to drink. So there was slip up #1. I decided at this point I would try to eat compliant foods when we went to eat, but it was a moment that was fun and allowed me to share a unique opportunity with my mom.
When we went to dinner- we ate at Chili’s, where I had a chicken fajita with no seasonings or butter (just to be safe) and a side of broccoli. I did not eat any chips, but loaded my fajitas up with salsa and guacamole. They were delicious. I was pretty much full the whole afternoon after eating there. I snacked on a few veggie chips before the concert, but that was it.
At the concert, I had slip up #2. I guess since I had justified drinking early in the day, I decided to have shock top (unfortunately, I looked for cider since it didn’t upset my stomach earlier and couldn’t find any). It was blazing hot, the music was great and Miranda Lambert is my favorite artist- EVER!. All of her songs correlate to a point in my life and have gotten me through some hard times. Plus, I had my favorite person to dance and sing with right beside me!
I didn’t feel like the beer affected me too much during the show, but I was excited and danced for basically five hours straight. When we got back to the hotel, I could feel a sharp pain in my stomach and a headache coming on. The next morning I felt so swollen and a sharp headache. I definitely didn’t drink to the point of intoxication, so the only thing I can think of is that the wheat beer definitely caused the irritation. So even though it was a slip up, one of my goals of this challenge was to pin point foods/beverages that are causing irritation to my body. Obviously, I accomplished part of that goal and definitely learned a lesson. I definitely felt guilty and embarrassed on my way back home- thinking of how those of you following me are going to be disappointed and how I should be ashamed that I let myself down (see, these are the types of “negative” thoughts I am trying so hard not to have) I debated whether or not I should continue or start over and for now I am continuing on. If I have to add a few days on to the end- so be it. When I looked on the whole 30 website it says things like “be an adult” and “its only 30 days”, but having this harsh/militant mindset can be just as detrimental as overeating. I definitely didn’t over-indulge and I immediately got back on track rehydrating and eating whole30 foods the next morning. For now I am just going to take this one day at a time. Even if it is not exactly the way whole30 intended, I am making good health choices for ME for 30 days straight. So here is to starting day 10. I hope I don’t have any more “slip ups” for the next 20 days- I shouldn’t since I have pretty much picked a month where I have nothing going on but work.